i don't care if i fail. i'll try

If you want something badly enough is it possible to will it into existence? Let me know your take on it?

How did I meet you? I don’t know. A messenger sent me

Good stuff is happening.

recurring dream

I had a dream last night where I was flying through a modern city with walls too tall to fly over, and came to a mausoleum. The mausoleum led outside of where I had been, like a door to someplace else. It was the second time I’ve visited this place in my dreams. I walk up a long flight of stairs that lead to a balcony, there were familiar faces along the stair case waiting for me to ascend. The balcony is old and falling apart, there is a gap between the last step and the platform I need to be on. The first time I was there in my dream the gap was closer than it was this time. Both times I jumped across to the platform. I know that i need to continue past the platform but I don’t know how. I stand there wanting to go out past the platform but cannot. This time I jumped forward off the platform, the platform deteriorated beneath my feet and I slipped and fell down off to the ground beneath it. My family was there beneath the ruined platform. My father said something to me, I don’t remember what but I understood his disappointment. My sister was with Brian and they turned their backs looking over their shoulders at me and laughed. My mother was smoking a cigarette and offered a pitying hug. 

The platform was destroyed, and I understood that I can never return to the platform and never reach what was outside of this place.